I need to update about my uneventful Friday evening, but I am currently trying to will myself to take a shower.
Do you know how hard it is to take a shower when you just have no energy or desire to do so?
Yes, it’s embarrassing.
No, I don’t “smell”.
I keep myself clean, I just don’t feel like washing my hair.
It’s too much of a chore and I don’t enjoy showering anymore. In part, the reason is because I hurt so much that it is hard to stand there. I always think I am going to slip. I get dizzy and disoriented.
My arms and shoulders hurt too much to go through the motions of washing my hair. My knees hurt so badly that I think they will give out at any minute and I will be in some tragic shower incident.
I just don’t feel like doing it.
I’m going to try. Then I will update Friday.
Wish me luck.