I should probably post an update but I don’t feel like it. I’m just super depressed right now over various things. I’m going to try to right it and think of positive things but so far it’s no good.
It’s hard to think positive when everything feels like it’s hitting me at once. All I want to do is cry and sleep.
I’m not depressed where I’m thinking of death or self-harm. I’m depressed and feel like a failure. I feel like I’m an ugly fat piece of shit and that I don’t deserve to be happy. I think I deserve to be all alone and miserable.
I know my life isn’t nearly as bad as it is for some, but it’s bad for me. It doesn’t help me any to be this down and discouraged.
I have no desire to be up and a part of this family. I have no desire to talk to my husband. I have no desire to take a shower or change my clothes. That folks, is my depression.
I have a few devotional posts here and I don’t even feel like posting those. There’s no energy or desire to do anything at all.