It is really sinking in and making me feel like the shittiest parent ever. I have the sinking feeling that I ruined my oldest son’s life. I let him quit school in tenth grade and he should be graduating this year. I have nothing but regret and hatred for myself right now.
Why did I let him do this? Why did I bring it up? Why did I agree to it? I mean what kind of parent just lets a 15/16 year old quit school and do nothing with his life for two years???
I am so full of regret right now that I could beat myself up if it was physically possible. I’ve been worrying myself sick over his future for weeks now and it all goes back to the mistake that I made. The huge mistake that I made!!
What the fuck did I do to this boy’s life? He’s 18 now without a diploma, not in school, and has no job all because of ME!! Do you know how big of a cross that is to bear?
I want to make it right somehow and I’m having a hard time trying to do so. I want him to go to school and get his GED and he said he wants to work instead but I see no effort or indication that he is looking for a job. What do I do?
What do I do??
Regret… It will eat you alive…